For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
I made it my routine to go to the Lord in prayer at 5:30 a.m. Oh, this wasn’t my idea to get up that early…that would be the Lord’s idea…not mine! I was definitely not a morning person. It was in my pursuit of an intimate relationship with the Lord, that the Spirit of God called me to come to him at that time. So I was obedient to the Holy Spirit’s calling. It wasn’t easy at first. I definitely struggled getting up that early and remaining awake during my prayer time. I would pray the night before and ask God to wake me up so I could get up and pray and I would wake up before my alarm went off. I’d look to see what time it was and it would be 5:28 a.m. How cool is that?! God would always blow me away like that and he still does, and I love him for that!
So for three years I continued to make this my morning routine and God definitely began rewarding me for spending that time alone with him in prayer. It was in the darkness of the early morning that I became so very intimate in my relationship with God. He spoke to me so clearly and guided me in my thoughts and feelings. I call my time alone with God my “A.A. Meeting.” I know what some of you might be thinking and, no, I’m not an alcoholic. A.A. for me, stands for “Attitude Adjustment.” Because it was in my intimate time alone with God in prayer that everything in my mind and heart and life became adjusted to the way that God would have me think. It is a daily time for me to take on the mind of Christ and become transformed into the likeness of Christ. Just ask my sweet husband and he’ll tell you that I was definitely more lovely after my prayer time than beforehand.
So here I was, three years later, and instead of dreading getting up to spend time with my God, I loved it and looked forward to it. There was no one who needed me at this hour of the day it was just me and the Lord all by ourselves alone in the quiet of the morning. One particular Saturday morning I woke up after only having five hours of sleep. This was not my usual routine because typically on Saturday’s I felt the Lord’s permission to sleep in. But on this morning I woke up from a beautiful dream and felt so good physically and mentally that I just wanted to go spend time with the Lord. Not because I had to, but because I wanted to. I just wanted to spend time praising him and pour out my heart in thankfulness to the Lord.
I slipped out from my bed and quietly escaped to the extra bedroom, which was my designated place of prayer. I got on my knees and prayed over the bed and began the morning by just praising God for his goodness and for blessing me with such a beautiful dream. It wasn’t everyday that I just woke up feeling great. Most mornings I really didn’t feel well physically and it took me a while to get going. But this morning seemed special in some way and I couldn’t wait to share that with my best friend.
But this morning truly was special and this day would change me forever. So there I was, praying and praising and pouring out my heart that morning, when God decided to bless me by speaking to me first-hand; an actual conversation with my Father. Weeks before this day I began to ask him if I should go back to work or not. I had been a teacher in the public school system before I had kids but my deepest desire was to be able to work a job at home and still be with my children. Then as I was praying, the Lord gave me a vision. In that vision he spoke to me and told me that I was going to write and that I was going to write a book. He showed me the cover of the book and it had the title of the book on the front cover. He went on to explain the meaning of the cover and what it meant for me personally. When I was puzzled by certain details that I was seeing, he answered my question in a way for me to understand easily. It was a beautiful, face to face conversation with God only I didn’t see his face, of course, I heard his voice and felt the intense closeness of his presence. Needless to say, I was totally blown away by God blessing me that morning in our meeting. I had heard the phrase, my cup runneth over before, but not until this day did I truly experience its full meaning and depth. I felt as if I was holding out my hands in prayer that morning and God kept pouring and pouring and pouring out himself and blessing me to way over the maximum capacity a human being could take. His presence was overwhelming and joyful to the extreme! My words here cannot contain or capture what I felt that morning – there’s just no way to fully describe his magnificent presence!
From that point on I knew exactly what God wanted me to do with my life and that is to be a writer. I never thought I would be a writer, as a matter of fact, I never thought I’d amount to much of anything. But God had a plan in mind for me a long time ago, and that was to be a writer for him, to share my experiences and to give him great glory. Since that morning God has given me his words to write and I am his faithful witness.